ColorMe Burgundy

I sometimes find life to be exhausting
between the repetitions
and constant need for perseverance
I often finding myself in a constant state of near narcolepsy

I know she wants it
but I'm afraid I'll hurt her
I don't wanna mess up
something that's not supposed to be serious in the first place

It doesn't make sense, I know and can accept that
but what I can't except is to
act on an urge
and do what I know will be worth it

I mean,
what the worst that can happen
she says no
oh how horrid it would be
I know she won't flip out
I've already tested the waters
but still this little tick in the back of me head
of that memorable tick
keeps screaming out
that it would be a bad idea

I need this
I tell my head
but it continues
to think and stop
me from getting what I want and deserve

and I want is a kiss
maybe more
jut to know I can do it

if he hadn't fucked with my head so much
I know I'd be able to grab it
but instead it slips my grip
keeps me yearning for more