Wednesday, September 24, 2008

ColorMe Jade

I can’t help you
I’m sorry
I wish I could
but I can’t

I don’t have the attention
time
or patience
to help everyone who looks to me

everyone always does
always has
probably will
but I wish you wouldn’t

I am not your friend
I am just a man who knows how to feel

I’m not your friend
I’m not your lover
I’m not your family

five lines I never thought would hit home so hard
mean so much

I love you
oh so dearly
but just because I care
doesn’t mean I’ll help

what’s sick is I probably could
I could probably help you
cure whatever ails you
but the simple truth is

I’m not going to
I’ve recently decided to live my life
rather than be everyone’s conscience

one of the deciding factors of becoming a writer
was to help people
so if through my writing
if my words hit home

take them
learn whatever you can
and hold on to them
as if they were the only blanket you’ve ever had
but don’t come back
and ask me for more
because I won’t give them

I wish I could
but I’m only one man
and I think I deserve
after living the way I have all my
though very short
life

to go out
mess up
make decisions
I’ll always regret

and get advice
rather than give it
sure I could avoid it
but that’s no fun

I love you dearly
so don’t take this too hard
but if you talk to me
I’ll ignore you

the me you know
exist in digital form
the man on the street is a shell
and doesn’t wish to be any more

I appreciate the comments
they really do make my day
hopefully it’s an honest exchange
but don’t talk to me

I’m sorry
but can't take it

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

I quite enjoyed this, jsyk.
I think it's definitely something that I can kind of relate to.

Anonymous said...

Wow that's really good.

whoeverSHEis said...

i find it strange that you advertize for pepole to comment this while it clearly states in your poems for pepole not to talk to you.. slightly contradicting dont you think?

thats besides the point. its amazing, as usual. i feel like when you write, you let people see who you are really content with. but in the way of living you own life, dont lose who's close to you. you dont want to know what regretting something that big feels like. take it from someones who's been there.

and dont worry, eventually, you'll be happy with what you see in the mirror

Turnup said...

Well I want to receive comments, I just can't actually talk to you: )

Thank you for all the nice words : )

Anonymous said...

forever the best blogger

NicoleFresh2Death said...

uhm wow i loved this. your probably one of the most understanding people ever. i found this so insightful and it's like you know exactly how i feel.